kik-sama

The weekend that is Metrocon is over.
Life can start flowing again.

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There are so many things I want to say, but I can't say them.... not in writing, not out loud, not anywhere.

It is funny because while I have felt this way before, I had no problems holding it in, as it was me and my problems and my secrets that I had to keep. But now that my life has so many people in it, now that I have things I want to say to them and for them, the words bubble just under the surface. It is only thinking carefully about how much my life would change should I speak, that keeps it where it belongs, just behind my teeth.

For all of the stupid things I say, I am ever mindful of what might change a relationship. Because I know that someday the people I hold dear now will leave, or maybe I will leave them. But for now, the way my world is makes me content, I'm closer then I ever have been to having true friends, and I am glad to say that I shall never have better ones, as there is no such thing in this world for me.

Now I wonder if I should post this at all, for all the times I've gone over it and re-written it, should I leave it as is....? Because to me it seems even this may be saying too much.

Please don't try to find out what this means, or if it is about you, or about your friends, take it for what it is. I can't speak. And I won't speak. Because I love them all just the way they are.

I have 0 Deviations to look though!!! <3
Tomorrow will be room cleaning day!! (I swear XD)

I think I'm like to do a journal of sorts on here..... Google Chrome makes dA so much easier to use...<3

Any whos, so I'm feeling good.... I doodled something, found some new music, and tons of new art...
I'm hungry though....
Oh! I made tea today~ I'm going to get mote soon as this is done...

I can't think in full sentences...

And I posted to facebook, will be interesting to see if anyone notices >.<

Meh, I'm tired so I will go find something to read and head to bed... night night ^_^

I've spent most of my time today dieing from a tummy ache and going through the masses of deviations I have.

it is now down to 666.... I thought now would be a good time to stop XD

I have also uploads stuffs, for the first time in like forever...

Classes start up again soon though and I know my deviations will be back you to 6,000 in no time.

Well my computer went wacky on me over the weekend, just wanted to let anyone who cares to read this know that all my programs and such are gone, photoshop, word, etc.

Along with my newer music and pictures, everything else is on the extrenal hard drive (thank god) but aother then that all my favorites and such are gone.

I found an awesome person, and I wanted to do a bit of Gravtation fan art and dedicate it to him because HE write Gravitation fanfiction <3 and that is just awesome.
But this whole thing has killed anychance of that. Oh well...... it gave me time to read two books and fill up a sketch pad of CRAP that will never see the light of day >.< good times.

Um, well A few things to cover...
I have gone through 2,500 deviations..... and still have 6,593 to go......
I should have been doing my home work the whole time....
But I'm me and there for would rather remind me self of how much I suck at drawing for hours on end, then get my ducks in a row.
I have learned the power of 'it's a small world' as a deturrent for situations and people ^_^
I is raeding a fanfic, 'THe Black Bunny' on ff.net and so far it is cute.... Nutral harry gets wooed by Tom, while Draco gets molestered by the twins...
everyone wins ^_^

Looking though dA makes me want to draw, but I can't draw.... so I setteled for doing this journal.... maybe now I can do my homework XD
(p.s. the japanese students are comming!!!)